so damn confusing ! i've waited for this girl for 3 years now. she's not ideal, but she's really sweet and i really like her. the problem is she's not interested.. not the tiniest bit. it makes me feel so unattractive at times.. she and i are really good friends though. time and again, i think about asking her out. but no, i just can't. don't say what's there to lose, there's plenty to lose. the friendship is irreplaceable. so then i should be happy with the friendship alone, and i am. but my heart still feels.. well, now.. if i confront the problem, what's the problem here? it's not loneliness, it's not the lack of her in my life, it's not really any of that.. the problem's not even related.. the problem is my lack of focus. i know where to focus, i just need to keep focused through hard times. this life needs to go somewhere special. and when i get there, i wont be as confused or irritated by lil things as such. ..when the world sees us the way we are, they want it, but they can't get it, not by being the way they are. only then, will they want to change and be like us. i need to keep to the true focus, and the true image. that's the way i need to go. | 
